...underneath the burnt kitchen floor boarding, were the scattered missing personal belongings that were reportedly taken by our "GHOST."...



From "Portraits Of An American Family And The Illusions Of It All."

What was lost/forgotten was found/remembered...


From ACIM

I reconize the shoes that were sticking out from under the sheet, it was John....I had a dream before his death that he was climbing a mountain and at the top of the mountain he met himslf  and he shook hands with himself as if an agreement was completed...




From~ Portraits Of An American Family And The Illusion Of It All.

I am a student of ACIM and last night I had a dream that a child was singing  to me the words "You should see how you look now." their was more to the song but I don't remember how it went.

I know to some this might seem strange but I am no longer going to call Sunday, Sunday I am going to call it and mark it as "Today."

The saddest day of my life: While other parents were picking out which college to send their kid to I was picking out  which coffin to bury my oldest in. John was a very smart kid, got good grades and he was a very good kid. He was kind to everyone.


       John C. Vasquez Jr. Sept 4 1977-May 6 1995

My profile picture to be use on my publish work.

Did a couple of pages on military life and being a military wife. Question: so how do you mix Mormon life with a military life? Answer: You don't.

I just got done typing a page on my life in a Mormon Temple  17 years  marriage and what I have to say they are not going to like and I am sure that I am going to make some people very angry if my book is publish.

I just realize that I don't have any childhood pictures of me to go with my story but that is part of the mystery and what will back up my story. I had a tough time  focusing on my writing today. It was just a bump in the road, got through it and moving onward.

The first draft of my book "Portraits Of An American Family And The Illusions Of It All." is coming along very nicely, a lot better then it has on all of the other times that I was writing it only to toss it away.

I'm hoping to get my book" Portraits Of An American Family And The Illusion Of It All" publish, I have my eye on one publisher.

Portraits of an American Family and the illusions of it all

After writing and rewriting my life story I think I got the right voice for it. It's about my childhood with an alcoholic father an narcissist sociapath sister a little mystery and a bad marriage  after reading the ACIM  manual and joining a group that I love I found the voice  of forgiving.