I do have another way of looking at my life I do have another choice. I am a student of ACIM I've been studying for a couple of years now.  Writing my book is not just for myself or to  linger on the past it's to let go of the past.I've let go of the hurt and the pain a long time ago the only pain that I have now is the pain that those people that I love don't have the love of knowing of who they really are. I want my book to be a teaching tool for others. As I teach I learn.